Nicola Allender, 46, is now unable to pick up her two grandkids and feels they have been “taken away” from her.
She has been diagnosed with glioblastoma – one of the deadliest forms of cancer.
One of the symptoms means she loses control of her hands and arms and can’t pick up her grandchildren.
The grandmother-of-two is currently undergoing intensive radiotherapy and chemotherapy but she could have just months to live.
Medics are now trying to keep the disease – which Tessa Jowell MP is also battling – at bay but Nicola knows it’s a “matter of time” before it kills her.
Nicola, a mum-of-two, had a sudden seizure and collapsed on the stairs at her home in Ecclesfield, South Yorks., on November 25 last year.
She was put into an induced coma and remembers waking up in hospital four days later, by which time surgeons had removed part of the brain tumour.
Medics have been unable to pinpoint the origin of the illness but Nicola suffered from a bad neck three months prior to her first seizure.
She has told how there were no symptoms until the day of the seizure when she felt a sharp pain above her eyebrows.
The receptionist, who had worked in the A&E department at the Northern General Hospital for more than 20 years, has since suffered many more seizures and the tumour has now grown back larger.